Managing My Health

To summarize, I was diagnosed with primary amyloidosis in the liver and multiple myeloma late December 2011.  Both are incurable, both are progressive diseases, meaning they get worse over time, and both are fatal.

I had an MRI of my heart two weeks ago to determine if the amyloidosis is present in the heart.  The complications arise when the amyloid proteins start messing with an organ’s functioning, most often in the kidneys and the heart.  So far it appears my kidneys are not affected at all.

The MRI came back positive for amyloids in the heart, though it’s not entirely conclusive until you do a heart biopsy.  But that’s risky, and they are fairly confident that what they saw in the MRI indicates heart involvement.

I also had a CT scan of my chest last week, because what appeared to be another hematoma showed up as a bump on the left side of my chest.  It got bigger over the course of a week, and very painful.  I couldn’t bend without extremely sharp pain, and it started to affect the way I walk.  I saw Dr Greenberg who ordered the CT scan.  He initially thought it might be a tumor.  I really couldn’t understand how a tumor could grow so quickly, but whatever.  Turns out form the CT scan he believes it IS just a hematoma, and he told me to just continue taking my vitamin K (hematomas arise out of my clotting problems.)  Pain is slowly subsiding now…

It did show some good news in that my heart is of normal size, blood vessels are normal, there is no pleural or pericardial disease, and there are no bone lesions in the area they scanned.

Now on to the fun stuff.  Treatment.

Dr. Kang is recommending courses of high-dosage chemotherapy (Velcade / Dexamethasone) and then to see if I would be eligible for stem cell transplantation.  This is the standard course of treatment for multiple myeloma.  Chemo is also often prescribed for amyloidosis, but they don’t really, really know if it’s effective because it is so rare.

Linda and I have been doing a lot of research.  Wait, let me rephrase that…, a LOT OF RESEARCH.  As you may know we have been selling health-related products from Hallelujah Acres through Brodsky Ministries for some time now.  After hearing about our pastor (from NY) and his father being cured from his cancer by going on the hallelujah diet, so began an education in how nutrition can affect your health – both positively and negatively.

I never had a thought that it would be ME that we would be applying this knowledge to.

Aside from the hallelujah diet, there are many other doctors and nutritionists who have written books on the effectiveness of a raw-plant diet on healing.  One, for example, is Dr. Max Gerson, who was healing cancer patients as far back as World War II by his research on nutritive medicine.

Also in our research we wanted to find out just how effective traditional medical therapy was for amyloidosis and multiple myeloma.  Well, the answer is, not very.  There are many stories you will hear about this person and that person who was ‘cured’ by having chemotherapy.  Statistics will bear out, though, that unfortunately when a cancer is halted by chemo or radiation, it comes back elsewhere, more aggressive, more often than not.  It truly becomes a battle, one with many battles.  And unfortunately, it is your body that is the battlefield in this war.

From Wikipedia ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chemotherapy  ):  Chemotherapy is highly effective in some cancers, useless in others, and unnecessary in still others.  Taking all forms of cancer together, people who receive chemotherapy increase their odds of living five years after diagnosis by about two percentage points (e.g., from about 61% being alive after five years to about 63% of them being alive after five years).^[34] However, this overall rate obscures the wide variation. Cytotoxic chemotherapy produces much larger gains for some forms of cancer, including testicular cancer (about 40% of the men who live five years after diagnosis are alive because of chemotherapy), lymphomas (about 13%), and cervical cancer (12%).^[34] By contrast, chemotherapy is essentially useless in other cancers, including prostate cancer, melanoma of the skin, multiple myeloma, bladder cancer, kidney cancer, and pancreatic cancer: people who receive chemotherapy for these conditions are just as likely to die within five years as people who do not.^[34] Chemotherapy only slightly improves survival for some of the most common forms of cancer, including breast cancers (1.5%) and lung cancers (1.5%).^[34]  (this citation goes on to say, “To justify the continued funding and availability of drugs used in cytotoxic chemotherapy, a rigorous evaluation of the cost-effectiveness and impact on quality of life is urgently required.”)

So, essentially, I will have a 2-3 % better chance of living past 5 years if I take on this battle*.  Oh, let me rephrase that.  The battle becomes, not so much with the cancer, as it does with the chemo drugs.  Effectiveness aside, chemotherapy, as you know has some incredibly destructive side effects.  What it does is it targets fast-growing cells.  All cells,  Not just cancer cells.  It weakens the immune system.  It causes other problems such as peripheral neuropathy (which in reading actual patient posts in forums – is horrible, horrible, horrible), hair loss, pain, nausea, and one that doesn’t make sense for ME, it causes bleeding – make patents more likely to bleed internally.  Oh great – me, with the Factor X deficiency taking chemo.  I don’t see how that would work out here.

So to help all these side effects, the doctors prescribe MORE drugs.  So you end up taking drugs to deal with the drug that was supposed to heal you.  Which eventually does not.  Not great medicine.

*Actually it would be 2-3% if it were a different kind of cancer.  But multiple myeloma is one of those cancers that chemo is essentially useless for

From the New England Journal of Medicine:

“High-dose therapy with supporting autologous stem-cell transplantation remains a controversial treatment for cancer. In multiple myeloma, first-line regimens incorporating high-dose therapy yield higher remission rates than do conventional-dose treatments, but evidence that this translates into improved survival is limited.“

So what does this mean?  One of the most respected publications in the medical field is saying that the specific course of treatment that my doctors want to give me is not likely to improve my odds of survival.

It seems to make sense to me that since cancer can only occur in a body with a weakened immune system, if you take chemo which will batter that immune system further, the cancer will only come back, and worse.  And that appears to be what happens time and again.  So instead of taking something you KNOW will damage your immunity further, how about helping your immune system by strengthening it?  How do you do that?  Nutrition.  By feeding your body all the rich nutrition it needs, and at the same time, cut out all the things that can weaken it (such as animal products, dairy, sugar, all processed foods — especially those with chemicals), your immunity gets better, and our wonderful bodies which God created, can continue to heal itself.

Heal itself?  Mark, have you gone mad?  No, not really.  Any medicine you take does one of two things.  It either covers up a symptom, or does something that allows your immune system to function properly.  That is it.  No medicine ever cured anything, ever.  Ezekiel 47:12 reads:  ¹² Along the bank of the river, on this side and that, will grow all kinds of trees used for food; their leaves will not wither, and their fruit will not fail. They will bear fruit every month, because their water flows from the sanctuary. Their fruit will be for food, and their leaves for medicine.”

Hippocrates echoed this passage when he uttered his famous quote, “Let food be your medicine and medicine your food”.

And Genesis 1:29 says:  And God said, “See, I have given you every herb that yields seed which is on the face of all the earth, and every tree whose fruit yields seed; to you it shall be for food. “

So it is in God’s plan that he has healed us, and through the resources he makes available to us, primarily in what we eat – nutrition.  That is not to say that doctors don’t play an extremely valuable part of this equation.  I am certainly not refusing medical care while boasting that God will heal me, God will heal me (regardless of what I do or don’t do.)

No, not at all.  I will work with my doctors in testing and diagnoses but just not this particular plan of treatment.  I am not doing the chemo or stem cell transplantation.

What I AM doing is I have changed my diet, dramatically.  I drink 6-8 glasses of fresh vegetable juice every day, lots of salads, nuts, and supplemental vitamins and herbs known for their powerful antioxidant and alkalinity properties.  No more meat, dairy, sugars…. well a little tiny bit, but I am replacing that with more natural sweeteners such as Stevia.  No more processed food.  If it comes from a package in the supermarket, basically it’s not going down my gullet.   A mostly raw, organic vegetable diet will cure me, and I would ask you to pray with me and be in agreement with me that God will use these things to make me healthy once again.

I will be going back to get labs taken periodically to see how I am progressing.

Thanks for reading!  Blessings,

Mark

An Unnerving Uniqueness

Well, what started out as something quite simple (a banged knee), has turned into a very rare condition – so rare that they don’t even have a name for it!  To give you an idea, my go-to doctor (the one who admitted me to the hospital) is a blood specialist, or hematologist – not an orthopedist or GP.

On September 16th, 2011, I noticed a bump on my left knee – on the inside of the knee, and it was kind of painful.  Odd, I thought – I didn’t remember banging it on anything.  Next couple of days I noticed the following:

1.  The left knee started bruising – so I took it for granted that I must have hit it on something despite the fact that I did not remember doing it.
2. I started getting a lump on my neck – on the left side, right under the chin.  It didn’t really hurt, but it started getting big enough to see.  No discoloration though.
3.  My right calf muscle started hurting as if I had had a leg cramp… the feeling you get in the muscle after you get a cramp – but I did not remember getting a leg cramp anytime in the last few months.
4.  I started getting a lump on the calf muscle near the top – like a big ol’ knot.

Ok, I understand, I just turned 48 and I’m falling apart – sure, I got it.  Fine.

As the lump on my neck grew and my concern grew with it, my gait began to suffer as I unconsciously began favoring it as I walked.  The first day of pain bad enough to recall was the day after my birthday.  We had taken Joy-Hannah around the block for a walk but came back after it began to rain.  We did not get very far, but I figured that with a sore calf muscle I just shouldn’t have gone on a walk in the first place.

So the pain in my right calf steadily got worse as the bruising on my left knee slowly dissipated and the lump on my neck disappeared.  As is probably fairly common among people around my age – those who are in between being young and being old – like adolescents who are no longer children, but not quite adults – failing sometimes to accept the physical or emotional limitations that they are moving towards, and clinging to that part of their life they are leaving behind — I figured that like the knee and the neck, the right calf would fix itself and heal and everything would be wonderful and hunky dory.

But when the pain did not go away in my calf, the knot got bigger and it became harder to walk each day, I realized that I had to go see the doctor.  So if the pain was not improving by Monday, 9/26, I planned to just show up at the doc’s office and get it all fixed up, once and for all.

So that’s what I did.  I went to my general practitioner who looked at my bruised left leg and the right leg which was starting to swell, and asked, ‘what happened to you?!’  When I replied, “nothing – no accident or anything”, they got concerned.  Immediately I was sent over to the hospital for an ultrasound on my right leg to make sure there was no clot that could cause the lump in my calf.  It came back negative.

So now they figured the lump was definitely a hematoma, which is where a blood vessel bleeds out into your tissue and clots there, essentially causing a bruise.  If it’s close enough to the outer layer of skin, you see it as a bruise or black and blue.  If not, then it’s a strange lump.  So that would be the reasoning behind the lump on my left knee and neck.

Still, without a trauma of some kind to cause the bleeding out in those spots, they did some blood tests to check for any abnormalities.  So they let me leave with instructions that if the leg has not improved in two weeks (two WEEKS!?) to call them, or if it gets worse, to call them immediately; and they would get the blood test results to me.

So the next afternoon, the doctor’s office called while I working.  They had the blood test results.  Since it was after their regular hours, I figured it was bad.  They said I had some clotting abnormalities – that I should discontinue any aspirin products and all nsaids (like ibuprofen or the Aleve the doc wanted me to take) – basically anything that would thin the blood.  They would have their referral coordinator get with me the next day (Wednesday) to get me an appointment at the blood specialist (hematologist).

That evening, I had my leg up on pillows as I lay in the couch, and I noticed what looked like some dirt on the inside of my foot, by the heel.  Upon closer inspection, I saw that the discoloration was underneath the skin – and that it was blood.   So, I called the doctor’s office and they told me they wanted me to go to the ER and get ‘evaluated’.

So, we went to the ER, they did some blood tests, which came out a bit worse than the tests they took the day before at the doctor’s office.  But, the leg did not appear to be in any great danger, so they sent me home with instructions to follow up with my GP the next day and the blood specialist.

Next day, the pain continued to get worse and the lower leg continued swelling.  They made an appointment for me for that Friday, so off I went.  They took more blood, again the leg did not appear to him to be in any danger.  He told me that the results from the first two blood tests showed an abnormality in the clotting factors, which mean that my blood, for some reason, did not clot like it should, which could cause bleeding out (spontaneous bleeding) with little or no cause, in any part of my body.  The concern, I believe, is not so much bleeding in my leg, but what if that happened in a critical organ?

So the hematologist sent the blood off to be analyzed and he said he would call when he got the results.  He actually called me later that evening, and he said he was confused.  Though not all the results were back, what he saw did not ‘fit’ into any of the models he’s ever seen in blood clotting factors.  He told me to sit tight, keep the leg up, rest and he may want to get me admitted to the hospital for testing and treatment – though exactly what testing or treatment was not clear.

It was the next day before I heard from him, and he told me to go to the ER at Trident Medical Center and they will do a direct admission.  He said he would meet me in the room after I was settled.

So I went in, and the Dr showed up and we spoke about the possible treatments.  The first thing was to try and infuse my blood with a ton of good fresh plasma – called a ‘plasma infusion’ and because the antibodies that could be inhibiting the factor 5 from having normal clotting times are part of the plasma in some way, infusing me with all new plasma might help.

When that did not work, the next step was to start a series of blood transfusions called ‘plasma exchanges’, once per day over the course of several days, or until the levels normalized.  Once this happens, the leg should basically fix itself.  As far as what happens then, if I’ll have to get further treatments or testing, I have no idea right now.

As of Monday, 10/3, the doc said that if my levels showed continued improvements, he would release me from the hospital on Tuesday!  And that is what happened!  I came home Tuesday, 10/4 but had to continue the plasma exchanges at the hospital as an outpatient for the rest of the week.

This past Friday, 10/7, Linda had some people come over to pray over me for healing.  I was annointed with oil, the whole nine yards.  It was very cool and I knew that God is totally in control!

As of today, Sunday10/9/2011, my leg is showing improvement in that the swelling is slowly diminishing and the pain is subsiding a bit.  My levels are moving towards normal – slowly, but they are showing progress.

The doctor has ordered treatments (plasma exchanges) for Monday, Wednesday and Friday of this week.  I will update this post when I get any further info.

UPDATE 10-14-2011:  Spoke to Dr today and he is referring me for a second opinion to the clotting expert at MUSC (Dr. Greenberg) in Charleston, SC.  Should be seeing him next week, but I don’t have a date yet.  So far the plasma exchanges are not doing much other than to keep my clotting factors in line, but not back to normal, which was the hope. My leg is getting a little better each day, thank you Lord!

UPDATE 10-17-2011: Monday – Felt nauseous, short of breath and some tightness across my chest.  Dr. Greenberg’s office said to get to the ER at MUSC.  I did, was admitted when they got an ebnormal EKG.  They ran a bunch of tests, starved me, and I was also seen by Dr. Greenberg and his team of hematologists at MUSC.  I was released the next day when they found that my heart was OK.  The symptoms I was feeling could have been from the prednisone I had been taking for the previous two + weeks. (nasty stuff!) .  The ‘abnormal’ ekg just happens to be ‘my’ normal.  Go figure.

UPDATE 10-21-2011:  Friday – Had labs and in-office visit with Dr. Greenberg.  He found that what the clotting issues came down to is my Factor X (10) levels were off.  In-range, they should be from 50% to 100%.  Mine was reading at 14%.  Oy.  He ordered some IV vitamin K, and the following week for my catheter to be removed (because he said he felt the plasma exchanges were not helping me) YAY!  and on Friday he ordered to have labs taken, a plasma infusion to bolster my Factor X level and then more labs to test the result.

UPDATE 10-27-2011:  Thursday – Went to MUSC to have perm-cath removed from my chest at 7am.  With usual hospital time efficiency, it was 11am before anything was done, and because of some miscommunication, Dr. Greenbergs orders needed to be verified because in his notes in the system he said he wanted me to have two units of plasma infused before the cath was removed, however, it was not in the order.  And, I was scheduled the very next day to have the plasma infusion and labs to check it’s effectiveness on my Factor X level.

So, they decided to moved the infusion up one day, do the labs and so then on Friday I would just go in and see Dr. Greenberg and talk about things.  After the infusion and removal of the cath, which went very well, I was able to leave at 4pm!

UPDATE 10-28-2011:  Friday – The plasma infusion did NOT budge my Factor X level.  Still at 14.  So now Dr. Greenberg is scratching his head.  He ordered an MRI of my abdomen to look at my liver and spleen for this coming Thursday, and to rule out amyloidosis, they came in and did a needle biopsy of my belly fat pad to look for amyloid proteins.  Lovely.  Test results from the biopsy will take several days to a week to get back.

If I only bit my nails, I’d have something to do now…..

But, all in all, I am feeling good.  In the Factor X world, my 14% represents a ‘mild’ case of deficiency.  Anything 10% and up is mild, but under 1% is severe.  That is good news!  My leg is almost back to normal, walking does not hurt at all, and I really have no symptoms.  My strength is coming back from all that time in the hospital, so I think things are looking up!  (if you ever really want to feel sick, go stay at a hospital!  Yuck.)  I really feel all the prayers, the good thoughts and feelings coming my way from all over the country.  Thank you, thank you, thank you!

UPDATE 11/11/2011:

Well, I saw Dr. Greenberg and his assistant today at MUSC, after they took more blood. Got the PT, PTT and INR levels back and they were all pretty high and getting higher (not good).  The Factor X level was not back yet, but I will call later to find out what it is.  Judging from these other levels, I’m not betting on it being any better than last time.

I got a written report of the MRI they did on my abdomen and the good news is that there were no lumps or masses anywhere, no blockages or anything with any of the blood vessels.  Just an enlarged liver and spleen.  So, taken with the biopsy they did of my abdominal fat pad which showed no amyloids, they are still not sure why my liver would be enlarged.

They are referring me to a liver specialist at MUSC – I will hear back today most likely with an appointment time.

They will probably want to do a liver biopsy to check there for amyloids.  Evidently the fat pad biopsy is not completely conclusive because there would a higher concentration of amyloids in an affected organ, and in this case, they suspect amyloidosis of the liver, which would explain everything, they said.  It would NOT be good, but it would explain the clotting issues and enlarged liver and spleen.

So that’s that.  Dr. Greenberg told me the liver care at MUSC is rated in the top ten across the country, so I’m in good hands.  Nice to know.  Dr. Greenberg is still thinking it may be fatty liver which could have been caused by my weight or weight loss, but he’s wanting to see what the liver doctor will say.  Me too.

He also cautioned me to be very aware of any bleeding – like if I notice any pain or bruising – to get to him or the ER immediately.  So, no paintballing for me!

In any event, I’m just waiting and wondering when this whole thing will be resolved.  It’s going on 6 weeks!  Enough already!

UPDATE 11/22/2011

The Liver Biopsy:  Well, it was a much longer day that we had anticipated, and I am exhausted as I write this.  Linda was with me the whole day, thankfully!

The appointment was for 8am and we were told that I would actually go into the procedure at 10:30am.  The 2.5 hours would be to get labs, results, and most likely some fresh frozen plasma (plasma infusion) to help with clotting.

Well, the plasma infusion that was ordered was for 2 bags, and that didn’t even start until about 11am.  And they had it running at 150ml/hour which is very slow.  Each bag was over 300 ml, so we were looking at 5 hours to get 2 bags of ffp inside me.  Crazy.

I asked if they would step that up.  Last time I had the plasma infusion was just before they removed the catheter in my chest, and that ran that at over twice that rate.  I told them that and the nurses checked for me.  The attending doctor said no, 150 is what he wanted.  OK, fine.  I emailed Dr. Greenberg (the hematologist – coagulation specialist) and asked him to call the attending physician and have him step it up.

Well, that didn’t work because they never did increase the rate.

Finally at 10 minutes to 6pm after the plasma was finished and another round of blood work, they took me in for the biopsy.  I hadn’t eaten since the night before at around 8.  I was miserable.

The biopsy went well, though by the way they prepped me, you’d think it was major surgery!

The pain was minimal, and it went very well with no bleeding at the site on my neck, or at the liver, as far as they could tell.

(they did a trans-jugular biopsy of the liver, where they put a catheter into my neck, into the jugular vein which goes right into the liver.)

The whole thing took about an hour, and afterwards they wheeled my back to the room, and then said we had to stay there for about 2 hours so they could monitor me.  Finally we got to leave at 8:45.  So what we thought was going to take 4 hours or so took 13 hours.  Thanks, MUSC!

They said it could take a week or more to get the results back, but I am going to start calling the liver doctor (Dr. Wilner) tomorrow to find out when they will be ready.  I do not yet have a follow-up appointment with him.

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Thanks for reading!  Blessings to you and many thanks for your notes, cards and words of encouragement and prayers!

-Mark

WorshipPlanningSoftware.com Launches!

I am very excited to announce that after a looong hiatus, I am back in the Worship Planning fray with WorshipPlanningSoftware.com!

There are approximately 375,000 churches in the US that are of some form of evangelical denomination (Baptist, Southern Baptist, Methodist, PCA, etc…) and I figure if there are 80,000 that can use a Worship Planning site to organize their worship ministry (people, music, services, communications) then this should be an awesome way for lots of folks to get a lot more worshipping done and spend a lot less wasted time on details and other minutia!

If you work in a church, please have a look, or attend a church, PLEASE pass it on!

The site is https://www.worshipplanningsoftware.com/?asource=MarkMyWordsBlog07112011

Thanks for visiting!

What it Means to Lose 55 Pounds

Yes!  This morning I stepped on the scale and that wonderful, beautiful, glass digital measurement device from Germany read that magical number: 200!  That means so far I’ve lost 55 lbs, and as I was telling my son, David, I have not weighed in at 200 since college.

So, what does it really mean to lose that much?  20 lbs ago I wrote what it meant to lose 35, so here is an update:

Losing 55 pounds means:

• Now the ‘new’ pants are falling down.  (Arrrrgg – back to Kohls!)
• (– Can I really fit into 32s? –)
• Baggy is getting to look ridiculous
• Two less chins
• A 55-lb weight-loss journey is now over
• Now the ‘keeping it off’ journey has begun!
• Realizing how cool and beneficial fish oil is!  (I take 6 – 1,200 mg capsules a day)
• Figuring the cost of another new wardrobe
• Really needing to work out more
• Marble Slab last night with the kids 🙂
• Looking forward to seeing anything under 200lbs on that scale!
• Thinking that maybe 190 is better!

Stuck 10 Pounds from Here

I didn’t realize how overweight I really was.  Not until now, anyway.

Every time I see someone I haven’t seen in a while, they comment on how much weight I’ve lost.  I love it, but I am taken aback that some people even remember how heavy I looked – so much so that even after not seeing me for a while, they still notice it AND remark about it.

I really can’t even fathom what the contestants on The Biggest Loser must go through – after losing 100, 150, 200 pounds!  It must be amazing.  Like people must not even recognize them anymore!

But, on to the point of this post….A fellow who comes in to the place I am at building web sites at recently started the ‘Brodsky Diet’ of taking African Mango and stopping eating before being full, and he’s lost some weight.  Fantastic!  I saw him last week and he mentioned how he was still losing, just not as much as he hoped.  I hoped I encouraged him when I told him that I was stuck, have been stuck before, and to keep going.  He needs to lose about 100 pounds.

So being stuck at a certain weight for more than a month can give you some pause, especially when on a journey you expected to be over by now!
My wife’s aunt said something pretty profound (or at least I thought so at the time)… she said to me, ‘Mark, you’re not going to lose any more of that weight (belly fat) by dieting alone – you really have to start exercising….”

And she is right!  This week, I started back working out.  I need to build strength, muscle and take off the extra pounds that simply won’t come off.
I have noticed that crunches are easier to do now that I’ve lose weight.  In fact, almost everything is easier to do!

Well, 10 more pounds to go….looking forward to the day the scale stops just shy of 200.  I can’t WAIT!!!!

Have a great day!

-Mark

50 Pounds is a LOT of weight.

Sounds like the beginning of something HEAVY.  Like, when things weigh 45 pounds, it’s eh, not that heavy.  But when you hear, ‘please grab that 50LB SACK OF CONCRETE’ or some such thing, it just sounds heavy.

But that is how much weight I have lost in the past couple of years, mostly in the past 9 months or so.  I’ve lost 30 just since July, which was only 6 months back.

And mostly all I’ve been doing is eating slower so I STOP EATING BEFORE I FEEL FULL, to let my body ‘catch up’.  I thought that was a ridiculously simple (and quite unique and inventive) method of losing weight, however in reading a year-old Reader’s Digest from February 2010, I came across a tidbit that goes like this:

“Hot peppers raise your metabolism, but the real benefit of food with a little zing is that it slows your eating, says James Hill, PhD, past president of the American Society for Nutrition.  “Americans eat too fast”, he says.  “By the time your body signals that it’s full, you’ve overeaten.  Eating slower is a good weight-loss strategy…”

How’s about that?!  I don’t eat much spicy food, but the concept is there.  Eat slow, or stop eating before you FEEL full.  The pounds will come off.

A couple more interesting notables on the journey:

1. Fit into and bought a couple pairs of 34 waist Levis.  34s!  And they are not tight!
2. I’ve been asked if I am sick
3. I realize I better start getting more muscle on cause I’m looking puny
4. My dear, well-meaning but viciously honest 15-yr old son, David, no longer tells me I’m fat

One thing I’ve been doing in addition to simply stopping eating before I am full, is taking African Mango.  Dr. Oz calls it a ‘Miracle in your medicine cabinet’, and from what I can tell, it works.  It helps to make the leptin in your body more effective in managing how full you feel, along with the added benefit of lowering cholesterol and other things.

I hope this all helps.   If you’re on the same journey, good luck and know that you can do it!

Blessings,

-Mark

Breaking 210

Hey folks, been a while since my last blog post….  This weight loss stuff takes time!

If you are reading this on Facebook, this is being imported automatically from my blog at https://brodskyblog.wordpress.com

So it’s been like 90 years (or so it seems) since I started this journey.  Started because I was sick and tired of being overweight.  Our local homeschool group put on its own little version of “The Biggest Loser” in December 2007 – where anyone who wanted to participate could enter with a cool $20 and the biggest loser at the end of May would win all the money in the pot.  Not a bad deal!

I lost.  Not weight – just the contest. 😦

My weigh-in was 255 lbs – and even I was amazed how much I weighed.  Previously I had been up to 240, and twice before had lost around 40lbs to get down to a more normal and healthy weight.  I will eventually post a picture of me at the beginning of the contest and one after I’m at my goal which is less than 15 lbs away!

So far this time, I’ve lost about 46 pounds!  Yeehah!  Finally broke that 210 lb barrier!  Down to 209.2 this morning, and not looking back!

This is NOT about ‘yay Mark!’ but more about how YOU can do the same thing.  It’s  simple once you get it in your head – and once it’s there, your body will follow suit.  But really, it’s all in the head.  Make the decision, and don’t EVER stop.

My main thing (which may not be yours, but it really does work) is that I’ve found that my mouth is faster than my body.  Meaning – my body feels full much slower than I can eat.  So, if I stop eating before I get full, my body will catch up, and I won’t overeat!  Once you learn to stop eating before you are full and do it for a little while, you WILL FEEL FULL SOONER!  Every time!

Drinking lots of water helps, too, and not eating late, not snacking on garbage, etc., etc., etc….  BUT, I do eat whatever I want, including chocolate ice cream (yummy!), pizza, lasagna!  And I’m not talking Lean Cuisine, either – I’m eating the real deal!  Just not so much of it.

Until next time, eat well, just eat less!  God Bless.

Is My Scale Broken?

That was my first thought yesterday when I stepped on and it registered 215.  What?!?!!  215!!  That’s awesome! (I thought) But the next thought was, ‘Gee, is this thing broken?!’  How awful would that be?  Just as I think I am really getting somewhere in my weight loss journey, my scale methodically, slowly over time, breaks – 2-5 lbs at a time!

Ok, so it’s probably not broken.  I guess I am actually losing this weight.  It’s almost unbelievable because I have carried it around for years.  I have lost a lot of weight (about 40 lbs) twice in my life – once when I was about 30, and then again when I was about 37.  I lost it then gained it back, lost it again, gained it back.  But this time, it’s been 10 years, and I didn’t gain 40 lbs back – I gained about 55 lbs.  Egads.

So I was older, and had 30% more weight to lose.  The ‘older’ part made it hard enough – but to lose more weight than I had ever previously?  I guess that’s why it has taken me this long.  I’ve always wanted to procrastinate – but I just keep putting it off 🙂

So here I am – down to 215!  I have lost the 40 lbs.  A ‘familiar’ 40 lbs.  So what’s all this fat still doing here?  Oh yeah – the last 15.  Which may turn into the last 20 if I decide to go down to 195.  I may.  I’m about 6’2″ tall so 195 wouldn’t be bad.  If I got some more muscle on….

But remarkably, I actually can now see some things I haven’t noticed previously:  my stomach looks flatter.  Yes!  I wore a pair of jeans that was (last year) one of the tightest pairs I owned (even the stretch jeans I bought were snug).  I was able to pull them right down, while they were buttoned and zipped up.  (Could be embarassing!)  And those stretch jeans – I can’t wear them at all now – they fall right off.  And my biggest client told me the other day, ‘well you’re just wasting away to nothing!’ – and he usually doesn’t say much about personal things…

Why am I boring you with all this minutia?  Well if you’re still reading then there’s something that is keeping you interested.  If that something is hope, then please let me give this to you:  YOU CAN DO IT TOO!

This is the only reason for writing this series of blog posts.  For you, hopeful reader.  You CAN do it!  Mine certainly isn’t one of those amazing stories of someone losing over 100 lbs.  I did not overcome a major illness, I did not have surgery, and most importantly, I am not on any special diet. What is pertinent is that I am just a regular guy who was overweight by about 30% of my body weight (probably a bit more than usual), but nothing extreme.  I am middle aged (47) and I am a web developer (not a world class fitness instructor), etc…

I lost this weight one simple way.  I just ate less.  I’ve said it before, I’ll say it again.  I have not lived solely on salads and fruit.  I eat ice cream!  I eat hamburgers, pizza, even fettucini alfredo (one of my favorites!)  But, I don’t eat a LOT of those things.  Or anything, really.  It’s pretty easy now.  Leaving food over at the end of a meal.  Or even better – simply taking less, and finding that when I’m done with that smaller portion – that it’s enough.  I do not need to go back for seconds.

There’s something else here that is key:  I wait for my hunger to abate.  I do not eat until I am full.  I have found that when I do that, usually I have overeaten.  The body metaboilizes food slowly.  Much slower than you eat it.  So say it takes you 20 minutes to eat.  You may not feel full for another 5-10 minutes.  If you stop eating a little sooner than you become full (eating a sensible-sized portion) then your hunger will abate, your body will feel satisfied, and you will not really need (or want) to eat anymore.  That is basically how I lost this weight.  It’s easy, and it is all in the mind.

If you take this approach dutifully (out of duty to yourself) for one month – you will never stop.  And you WILL see results.  Try it.  Do it for a month and then get back to me and tell me how it worked for you.  But don’t do it selectively. Don’t use excuses like, ‘well we’re eating out’ or ‘ it’s a special occasion, so it’s ok, this once’…

NO!  It’s NOT ok.  If you allow yourself those excuses, it will not work.  It’s your mind working against you.  Your mind needs to work for you.  Tell yourself you can do it.  Tell yourself that you will stop eating now, you will surely feel full in a few minutes.  Let your body catch up to your mouth.  Please.    And the very best of luck to you.

-Mark

What it Means to Lose 35 Pounds

It means:

• Carving new holes in old belts
• Pants falling down
• The ‘Baggy’ look
• Comments from wonderful people I haven’t seen in a while (‘You’ve lost weight, haven’t you?!’)
• Passing the halfway mark in a 55-lb weight loss journey
• I’ve lost over 1.5 times my baby Joy’s weight
• Regret at having tossed some old (smaller) clothes in frustration (though they were given to a family in need, so it’s really OK)
• Figuring the cost of a new wardrobe
• Being less hesitant before sitting on a fragile-looking bench or chair
• Wondering ‘so what’s all this fat still doing here?’
• Better gas mileage 🙂
• One less chin
• The thrill of only having 20 more to go!

Actually, this morning the scale told me just shy of 220, so it’s 219, but I’m calling it 220 for now.  Look out 215!  I’m coming at ya!
We just came back from a trip to the NC mountains at a friend’s cabin.  The leaves were great, the weather perfect, and the food, plentiful.  Thankfully, I left over a good portion at each meal, and managed to lose a little, as opposed to gaining any weight this trip.

I’ve found that one of the biggest, most profound hurdles for me, was to stay the course, especially on trips, special occasions, and holidays.  Now, I have Thanksgiving and Christmas staring me in the face.  While I won’t have made my goal to have it all lost by December 1st, I am well on my way.  20 to go, and these holidays can just come and give me their best shot!  I’m not backing down!  Coming from a family where getting together is ALL about the food (and lots of it), it’ll be a challenge, but one I am ready for.

If you are in a similar situation, or want to be, just remember that it’s all in your head.  There’s nothing really physical about it.  Once you have your mind made up, nothing can stop you!  An occasional mistake (like today I had a Triple Lindy at Moes Southwest – my favorite!) should not stop you, or even let you down.  Just get right back on the horse, and ride on into the sunset. 

And losing that weight will make your horse feel better, too.  Good luck!

Room 222

Remember that show?   Well, this post has nothing to do with that show!

But when I stepped on the scale this morning, behold, I saw the little needle pointing to that magic number – 222lbs!
33 lbs less than when I started this journey.  Needless to say I am ecstatic… but also let it be said that for the past several weeks, it’s been teetering between 228 and 225 or so. 

It averages out to about a pound a month since December 2007, so nothing miraculous here, but most of it has been lost this year.  And it’s really all just eating less.  Of the stuff I really like… Oh, I eat pizza – but instead of 2 or 3 slices, I eat one.  Yesterday I had only half my sandwich (we made paninis – yummy!) because I was full!

So I saved the other half for later.  I still have ice cream (my downfall) a couple of times a week – not a huge helping, but anywhere from 1/2 cup to a cup.  Not bad.  No toturous routine of Lean Cuisine or Nutrisystems meals, and while I do eat salad several times a week, it’s not my main staple.

Ok, this is getting boring – just wanted to check in with you and let you know… 220 is right around the corner.  And then my goal of 200 will (almost) be in view.